The Curiosity : Dreams or Reality?

July 1st, 2013.  sometime i m really curious about the story between reality & dreams.  i mean here is when i closed my eyes in reallity, the dreams will takes or just continuing the story what has been not settled in the reality.  it just CONTINUING.  Even the plot & location is the same, but in different kind of people involve and situation.  In this, i mean, when the reality it comes to failure or heartbroken, but in dreams the plot still the same but every part of the story comes to successfull or happiness.  And when the story of dreams come to end, sometimes we are still in the position of the story in our dreams.  Example, when the last time we in dreams are lying with an l position, automatically we will be like that in the realilty with an x position. 

" Last night, i realize something between reality and dreams.  Before this i tried enough to forget every moment & everything about my story between my previous lovers #ed.  But, i don't know why d-lover face, story and everything is still haunting me. Just like a nightmare.  The story start when i m back to where i used to lived when i worked before.  At there, i living with all new people, but i m kinda lonely lying in bed.  The first i m noticing that i m never gonna forget  d-lover is by where when the new people introducing themselves, i still pronounced their name as  d-lover names even in handwritting. Why? It is hard enough to forget  d-lover actually this day.  By then, the story comes to the coming out of one new people in the place. OMG! the voice, the laugh and the ways people spoke i know. Its  d-lover!  OMG! The new friends of mine know and friends with  d-lover.  Its suck.  I don't know why i closed my eyes.  Maybe thought that the story between us will be continuing and i like used to be always want  d-lover to start an conversation.  If  d-lover starting it, i just get on, if not, just get lost. - The last plot of this story is i m trying hard to force myself to sleep when  d-lover reaching me. And i don't know what then, cause i m awake with the same position, breathing, heartbeat and feelings inside. "

Now, can you see it people? I mean the impact of my dream are still with me in the reality.  As i conclude, our L I V E is not S T O P even by the T I M E we are S L E E P I N G.  It still continuing repeatedly. Again and again. Just like 'Yin & Yang' things or mystery of 'Black and White dimension'

 Even when we are sleeping in a really tired times, we thought we didn't have a dreams, i believe we do, we just don't realize it cause of our tiredness.  The nightmare thing is, if we are dreaming about the death thing, such as we are killed by someone or involve in accident till death and fail to awake in the reality, i believe our soul are trapped in somewhere else.  The tragis things is we are gone forever or like people used to say 'Death in sleeps'. So people? Dreams & Reality? What bout yours? I m sharing this based on my nightmare, thougt, mystery-of-mines & my-experience.  Its all the truth for me cause i m within it.

b.t.w. today is d day of someone's bDay.  someone's is someone i used to loved ;  d-lover.  I hope you will living happily with ur own life.  I m always be here for you.  Even not as friend anymore but assume me just like an stranger that giving an motivation & advice of ur life like i used to be with u before.  If you are reading this, i hope you know that i m so much cared bout you before.  My weaknesses.  And if you realize that i have not talking to you before is because i m dissappointed in yours where you appear as an annoyers to me.  Now, i try to hate you, but yours still haunt me every moment i m alone, and i still waitin' for you to say G O O D B Y E.

My Favorite Supermodel All Time

The term supermodel refers to a highly-paid fashion model who usually has a worldwide reputation and often a background in haute couture and commercial modeling. The term became prominent in the popular culture of the 1980s. Supermodels usually work for top fashion designers and famous clothing brands.

C I N D Y  C R A W F O R D

Being success at modelling career made her an international celebrity that has led to roles in television and film, and to work as a spokesperson. In 1995, Forbes magazine named her the highest paid model on the planet.  Crawford has consistently ranked highly on lists of the world's sexiest people. According to Celebrity Net Worth, Cindy Crawford net worth is approximately $100 million.  Has been on the cover of more than 600 magazines worldwide, including "Vogue", "W", "People", "Harper's Bazaar", "ELLE" and "Allure”.  One of the five original supermodel.

N A O M I  C A M P B E L L

English model, actress, singer, and author. Recruited at the age of 15, she established herself among the top three most recognizable and in-demand models of the late 1980s and the 1990s.  First black female model on the cover of French Vogue, British Vogue, and Time Magazine. Chosen by People magazine as one of the 50 Most Beautiful People in the world.  Net Worth, $ 48 million.

H E I D I  K L U M

German American model, television host, businesswoman, fashion designer, television producer, and an occasional actress.  In May 2011, Forbes magazine estimated Klum's total earnings for that year as $20 million. She is ranked second on Forbes' list of the "World's Top-Earning Models"

G I S E L E  B U N D C H E N

Brazilian fashion model and occasional film actress and producer. She is the goodwill ambassador for the United Nations Environment Programme.  In 1999, Vogue dubbed her "The Return of the Sexy Model", and she was credited with ending the "heroin chic" era of modeling. Rolling Stone declared her "The Most Beautiful Girl in the World" in 2000. Bündchen was one of Victoria's Secret Angels from 2000 until mid-2007. Since 2004, she has been the highest-paid model in the world, and is the sixteenth richest woman in the entertainment industry.

T Y R A  B A N K S

Tyra Lynne Banks (born December 4, 1973) is an American actress, author, television personality and former model.  Banks is one of four African Americans and seven women to have repeatedly ranked among the world's most influential people by Time magazine.

A L E S S A N D R A  A M B R I O S O

She is often cited by the popular media as one of the world's sexiest women.  As an Angel, she was chosen as one of People magazine's annual "100 Most Beautiful People in the World" in May 2007.

A D R I A N A  L I M A

Adriana Lima is a Brazilian model and actress, best known as a Victoria's Secret Angel since 2000, and as a spokesmodel for Maybelline cosmetics from 2003 to 2009.  Ranked #1 on Askmen.com's Most Desirable Women (2004, 2005). In 2014, she came in 2nd on the Forbes top-earning models list, estimated to have earned $8 million in one year.

Discography of Ellie Goulding Pt. 1

Elena Jane "Ellie" Goulding, (known as Ellie Goulding) born 30 December 1986, is an English singer-songwriter and multi-instrumentalist.  Raised in Lyonshall, a small village near Kington, Herefordshire. Goulding possesses the vocal range of a soprano and is noted for her high piercing vibrato, breathy tone and emotive delivery.  Lights is the debut studio album by English recording artist Ellie Goulding, released on 26 February 2010.  The album was re-released on 29 November 2010 as Bright Lights, including six brand-new tracks.  Halcyon is the second studio album by English recording artist Ellie Goulding, released on 5 October 2012 by Polydor Records.

the chorus of my-top-tracks-from Ellie Goulding

You show the lights that stop me turn to stone
You shine it when I'm alone
And so I tell myself that I'll be strong
And dreaming when they're gone

Lights

I chase your love around a figure 8,
I need you more than I can take,
You promise forever and a day,
And then you take it all away,
And then you take it all away

Figure 8

Baby don't forget my name

When the morning breaks us
Baby please don't look away
When the morning breaks us
Oh your touch, so bittersweet, ah ah ah ah
Baby don't forget my name
When the morning breaks us

Bittersweet

But I wish I could feel it all for you
I wish I could be it all for you
If I could erase the pain
Maybe you'd feel the same
I'd do it all for you
I would [x4]

Gun And Horses

And God knows I'm not dying but I bleed now
And God knows it's the only way to heal now
With all the blood I lost with you
It drowns the love I thought I knew

My Blood

Discography of Lana Del Rey Pt. 1

Lana Del Rey. Names given was Elizabeth Woolridge Grant (born June 21, 1986), better known by her stage name Lana Del Rey, is an American singer-songwriter.  Del Rey's music has been noted for its cinematic sound and its references to various aspects of pop culture, particularly that of the 1950s and '60s Americana. The singer has described herself as a "self-styled gangsta Nancy Sinatra.

Will you still love me; When I'm no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me; When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will; I know that you will
Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful? 

Young & Beautiful

I will love you 'til the end of time; I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine; Baby can you see through the tears
Love you more; Than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember; I will love you 'til the end of time

Blue Jeans

Don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough
I don’t know why; Keep making me laugh
Let’s go get high; The road is long, we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Born TO Die

Kiss me hard before you go; Summertime sadness
I just wanted you to know; That, baby, you're the best

Summertime Sadness

The boys, the girls, they all like Carmen
She gives them butterflies, bats her cartoon eyes
She laughs like god, her mind's like a diamond
Audio tune lies, she's still shining; Like lightning, ohh, like lightning

Carmen

Tell me I'm your National Anthem; Ooh, yeah, baby, bow down
Making me so wow, wow; Tell me I'm your National Anthem
Sugar, sugar, how now; Take your body down town
Red, white, blue's in the sky; Summer's in the air and
Baby, heaven's in your eyes; I'm your National Anthem

National Anthem

but i won't cry myself to sleep, like a sucker.
i won't cry myself to sleep, if i do, i'll die.
now you fall asleep with another, damn you, damn you.  

Damn You

 as a conclusion, i love Lana. i love her voice. i love her songs. everything seems beautiful and inspired me.  p/s : this song doing well 4 me that just been in a heartbroken situation. in my situation, i has been left by d person i loved much. by then after listenin' 2 one of Lanas' track i feelin' that i am alive. So people? if i can move on, why dont ya? xoxo :)